Look upon Jesus, Count Joyfully!

Answer me when I call to you,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.

2 How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame [a] ?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods [b] ?
Selah
3 Know that the LORD has set apart the godly for himself;
the LORD will hear when I call to him.

4 In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Selah
5 Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the LORD .

6 Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?"
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O LORD .
7 You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.
8 I will lie down and sleep in peace,
for you alone, O LORD ,
make me dwell in safety.

when you need help in sleeping well... read this passage ya...
I love all of you! remember that even when exams preparations draw near gotta jia you okay? Don't fall away from the Lord but persevere with God. :)
yuppies.. good nites people!

queer... weird! i just publish my post on spiritual warfare.. and there it was gone!!! how can this be! humph. i'm determined to send this post out!

I need to let people noe that... spiritual warfare is real... Satan just love to attacks us.. Because he couldn't lay a finger on God at all! God is sovereign.. God is good... He is the great almighty. but satan only has a primary tactic that is called deception!

He deceited me! He made me feel so un-loved by the people around me.. which is not true. Because I know that I've got God's love.. what else do i not have.

1 Peter 5:8 "Be selfcontrolled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."

The best was.. he used my weakness to hit me so hard.. gosh! he is so evil.. scheming.. wicked! humph. I shall not be used by him anymore! God please help me! stop satan's evil doing. Dun let him direct the warfare to my fellow teams to harm them. Give all of us strength oh Lord..

Lord, thanks for the people whom showed their love n concerned for me. thank God for all of them! please protect each one with your blood and anointing. Amen!

People let's all stay awake and jia you on fighting for the Lord!

i used to think that blog shldn't be used to blog bad things... whenever there is bad things.. i change blog.. so i can dump the past away....

Still remember.. the first blog i have... guess... i blogged about people whom i dislike.. and was struggling to like the people... den.. i decided to changeeeee my blog.. so i can blog sth more cheerful... n in some attempt to do it.... guess wad???

some people insulted christ over there... and i can't bear to see it.. so i deleted the second blog. is not totally that's all. actuallie.. i felt insulted too.. sth about hypocrites.. and another group said alot abt me... saying that i'm this.. i'm that... horrible feelings.. tt isn't wad i wanted... then i came to this blog...

after i came over to this blog.. I was initially happy. coz i got the freedom of speech. nobody is going to be insulting my god. nobody to insult me. but later.. when i see more and more people coming to the blog.. and even some wierd secret admirer appeared... wen n leslie said tt i shldn't blog too personal stuff... and then slowly...i felt hesitated to write... felt irritated to write... felt unhappy to write.

eventually I stopped.

now that i'm back. i duno by blogging this am i bad.. but i wanna say im sick. tired. burned. given up. I just wanted a space to write... i just wanna be myself.. is it wrong?????????

blahz... maybe i shouldn't have started it. maybe i shouldn't avoid it. maybe i shld just shut up. grrrr.. wad am i doing???!!!!!!!!!

depression?? stress??? give up?? blah... blah... blah.....

feeling lousy ... why things always happened when i'm stressed.. when i'm stretched.. when i'm just on my way to gain strength... its just so easy to tear down.... tear down... and tear down.

I duno what's wrong with me.
Things that i used to be attracted to... i do not
Things that i enjoyed... i do not.
is it me or is it them?

guess is me again. my fault.

so where is my home..?? am i fallen? broken? incomplete??

God... i really duno what on earth is this all this about. I never felt so depressed in my life. i duno is tt i forgot the depressed feelings. or is it i nvr faced reality before. Or isit because the people whom i love n care n even trust.. betrayed. do I even have friends in reality. do i... should i ... am i.. would i.. can i trust anymore?

Lord.. at times i feel that you've given such an unique gift. I never asked for mercy. But becaused u made me this way... I feel double of everything. I feel double joy with there is new babies in ur kingdom.. i feel double sorrow when i see people fall.
I spent time n time again.. placing other first.. I heeded the advice that putting others' pain before mine.. would allow me to feel lighter. why i couldn't this time? why i feel horrible? is it the self-centredness in me? is it satan working in me?
can you cast the evil feelings out of me... may i have the joy of christ once more. May i feel your first love upon me again. can i say Lord, I love you.... ever more!

Jesus... i need you. come fill me again... once more... this void.. this sadness.. fills me.. deep. it cuts me deep. only lord can make me whole. heal me lord... I need you. i love you. I want you. Amen.

why is there different treatment for different people?
do good people get harder treatment?
do bad people get softer treatment?

vexed vexed vexed vexed.........

if i had i knew... i preferred to be the slower wan...
if i had i knew... leniency is showered never upon me...
if i had i knew... misconceptions nvr ends...
why can't I have the same treatment as others????????

why why why?
who cares about the people. who cares about them.
Why do they haunt me all the time... I'm not like wad they hav said. but nobody chooses to believe me?? am i someone whom people have no faith in me.?
am i supposed to be forever living in wad people wants of me.....

who is she to say dat i'm not well-like back in sch.....
isn't she hated by many many many many people too?
talking abt others.. wad crapz.. can't even keep her mouth shut.. i dun even speak ill of her.
hyprocite. she just wan to pretend to be nice when she isn't... i thot i understood that she is just being nice but no. crapz. grrrrrrrrrrrrr...... so angry that i just wan to scold all the bad things i can find in the world!!!!

so wad's the definition of being well-liked. isn't god enough?
Isn't it true that we should just be God pleaser!!!
why christianz see me the way others do.....
now i noe why people fall away from christ.....
Stop thinking that you are more holy than others. full of crapz.
Reflect upon urself if you are even perfect
why can't u accept me for who i am.
if u are a leader.. focus on being one.

doesn't all dis dun sound like joyce at all???
i duno what's happening anymore. must everyone treat me lidat!!
do u think that I can take all this crapz!
Ever put urself in my shoes!
when you dun even have a single bit of mercy for me.... why do i still think about u?????????

i noe how pamie feels. i love God. Pamie does too. but is it just the matter for passing this test?

am i plainly being selfish to think for myself........
isn't it like me running away frm it if i dun confront it now!

i dun wan to live my life to suit others. what degrading standard is that???
What kind of secondary school world do u live in?
can't u out grow that?

Understand your language before applying...
Flirt means to behave as if sexually attracted to someone, but not seriously

if you were use it... use it appropriately. i dun flirt!
There is nth wrong with being friendly.
If u said i was.... people see me similiar to u too. don't u noe.. u are too??? crapz.

whichever... wadever... leave me alone.

if u all dun wan to hurt the person. den discern what to tell that person! crapz.

Your EQ is

140 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

You may not know me, but I know everything about you
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad. Almighty God

blenhiem went to join god already. I duno wad god have install for his people? life can be as fragile as it can be. I'm feeling tired. feeling unhappy. is it because of life tt i'm unhappy about??

well.. today i had lots of up and down feelings.

i'm sad to know a friend left the world.
i'm happy to see the charis student home.
i'm sad to see my year 3 friends leave...
i'm happy to be able to spend time with all of them.
i'm sad that i'm unable to do the last 2 parts of the questions in my paper
i'm disappointed in myself to feel unrest when i finished the paper early.
i'm disappointed in myself to have little trust in friends.
i tried to be happy and smile when i gave out the little gifts.
was to sensitive to the word inappropriate. kinda pissed off.
was trying to be happy when everyone seems to be trying to cheer me up.
was concerned about wen wen...
was happy to chat with friends at the prata shop. felt a tinge of fun gossipping but gulity lots.
tried to lighten the atmosphere... but lost hope.
decided that i don't know wad i wan.
wad do i feel.... n even wad do i like... is it pms? guess partly.

well.. thats alot of thots for now. just wanna have a break. sorry dear to make u sad. good nite everyone.
love, joyce