Look upon Jesus, Count Joyfully!

i'm 18.. going on 19..i cannot be throwing tantrums anymore. i need to be more effective for God. oh mans. i've nv doubted my ability to do work. just like i've always been affirmed tt way. they can be not satisfied but they cannot say i am useless. cos if they do.. i'll probrably not do it ever again.

but my heart is so unwilling! i'm just in my laziest mode ever lah! cos i've been comfortable for too long. too lazy. why? cos the work load has been super just nice for me over the past few months. cos its only school work. Thus, i've been getting A's. Of course plus God's blessings lah.

a thot just flashed across my mind.. if i had knew i could get A's in all my modules over the past 3 years.. but because i was too busy serving and had no time to put my concentration on it.. that caused my results to dipped. Would i still choose to serve God? oh manz. i duno what's my answer leh....

but i've realised being a student is so so so so so so much easier!! why why why.. being a christian is so much tougher. I have chose the tougher road. the road that requires so much more effort. why din i used to think it was tough.. tt's cos i have never come to a complete stop in christian activities. now that all has stopped.. i'm having problem restarting the fight against the great inertia to drive against the currents. boooooo.

wah. i feel so tired. jiu ming arh.. wo zhen de bu zhi dao yao zhen mo zuo. dan shi wo ye bu xi wang you ren lai gao su wo gai zhen mo ban!! zhen mao dun. *pout*

suan le lah. wo pai ren jia yi wei wo bu yao gan le.. wo yi ding hui jian chi de la. wo zui tao yan de jiu shi wo zuo le yi ban chai cong wo shou zhong na zhou. hui qi si ren lo!! haha.. ok.

i gotta go le. seeya.