Thursday, July 27, 2006
Lord Lord..
After this few days.. blogger is finally up again.
finally i can blog in peace.. i really had so much things happening in my life.. i'm feeling tired and overwhelmed.
i have a few things to do.
1. SIS Presentation
2. IBS Sales Scenario
3. Outreach Movie E
4. Cards (both)
I dun really want to do anything. cos i think i am resting. and i need to rest. I haven't get ready to work yet. sians. I wan to rest.. yar.. i'm whining!!.. arrrrrggghhhhhh!! my relunctant heart. but i know i will be better tml.
Today my heart got problem. I am not happy. Truth. Cos i dun like certain things that happened. But i acknowledged it. and I prayed about it. I duno how it will work out. But at least i never walk away or be give people the face. But actually.. it is me to like not do that lah. cos i dun do tt in such situation.
i only give my unhappiness or my attitude or sth (whatever you wish to call tt) when i can't take it. so yah. i'm trying to stretch my limits in tt sense. cos i cannot do what is not right in God's sight rite? so i'm trying lo.
maybe when you lack love.. is lidat de. i'm not saying this to get people to love me la. i'm saying that lacking of love and attention.. Girls are abit more cranky. or ok. i shldn't over generalise. so is just me.
today.. i nv cry. i decided not to cry. but i got tears in my eyes.
and it just flow out 2 big drops! win liao lo. haiz. i am too emotional! but sharon leaving le. i really feel it. but duno lah. i am glad for her too. i wrote to her. i hope she will enjoy and be happy. tho, i din get to tok to her today.
as for me, i'll still try to adapt. it probrably will be hard. but i know i have to learn to be mature.
i'm feeling immature! i'm immature.. immature.. childish! just want my way.. now now now! boo boo. i am so suppressed. but the message was good. i can go and write my reflections later. yup QT. blah blah blah.
**** yesterday ****
supposed to go to de ting's daddy's wake de. but i nv go. one thing is cos i go for DG. another is also i decided not to. Cos..
dad was cranky lah! he woke up. when i was tokking to mum about stuff like IC and stuff. then.. daddy woke up and gave his angry 2 cents worth. Then he carried on rattling. so i decided to change topic. and tok about the wake.
then i was asking mum whether the wake is a buddhist or taoist one? den tokking about is it miao or si. Then daddy was cranky again! he scolded me and mum.. he say you guys dun even know about religion stuff properly.. den anyhow believe in christianity. thanks lo. I was really feeling beri unjust.
i told my sis to pray for dad. cos i couldn't. i could feel my whole brain thinking of how to rebuke him back. but i nv actually say it to him. cos he left home. and i thot it was my chance to cool down. he went down stairs to buy sth.
then he came back and went to lunch with me and mum. me and mum went off first. den he slowly catch up. ERM i was quite unhappy still. mum kept reminding me of wad he said. probrably trying to analyse his words. but i was not in the mood to. so i kept super quiet. and i only told mum that i going to fmss den ask her to go shop around the market first.
then i went to aunt pat and was appointed to do the outreach thing. i duno what to say lah. then.. i was waiting for tracy and evan to end school. den..meanwhile mum and dad finish food already. she called me to say she is going home le. so i said ok. then.. i was contemplating what to do with my lunch.
tracy offered to eat lunch with me. I agreed. so we ate together. she was in the end late for lesson. my fault bah. in some sense bah. sorry.
then.. was so tired. and i went to school. i couldn't believed my ears when ben told me he like junhao. ahhaaa.. i look at my sis and we laughed. cos. i first time hear guy saying he like a guy is the just friend way. dun xiang wai. its ben. but is quite funny. hahahahaa.
ok. tt's all for now. my dg was great. din had dinner so eat bread. chatted with cor. i nv chat online. din want to get addicted. yup yup, slept late. but did QT. yup. glad abt tt.
yup yup.. tata. - i spent 30 mins on this. oh mans!!
finally i can blog in peace.. i really had so much things happening in my life.. i'm feeling tired and overwhelmed.
i have a few things to do.
1. SIS Presentation
2. IBS Sales Scenario
3. Outreach Movie E
4. Cards (both)
I dun really want to do anything. cos i think i am resting. and i need to rest. I haven't get ready to work yet. sians. I wan to rest.. yar.. i'm whining!!.. arrrrrggghhhhhh!! my relunctant heart. but i know i will be better tml.
Today my heart got problem. I am not happy. Truth. Cos i dun like certain things that happened. But i acknowledged it. and I prayed about it. I duno how it will work out. But at least i never walk away or be give people the face. But actually.. it is me to like not do that lah. cos i dun do tt in such situation.
i only give my unhappiness or my attitude or sth (whatever you wish to call tt) when i can't take it. so yah. i'm trying to stretch my limits in tt sense. cos i cannot do what is not right in God's sight rite? so i'm trying lo.
maybe when you lack love.. is lidat de. i'm not saying this to get people to love me la. i'm saying that lacking of love and attention.. Girls are abit more cranky. or ok. i shldn't over generalise. so is just me.
today.. i nv cry. i decided not to cry. but i got tears in my eyes.
and it just flow out 2 big drops! win liao lo. haiz. i am too emotional! but sharon leaving le. i really feel it. but duno lah. i am glad for her too. i wrote to her. i hope she will enjoy and be happy. tho, i din get to tok to her today.
as for me, i'll still try to adapt. it probrably will be hard. but i know i have to learn to be mature.
i'm feeling immature! i'm immature.. immature.. childish! just want my way.. now now now! boo boo. i am so suppressed. but the message was good. i can go and write my reflections later. yup QT. blah blah blah.
**** yesterday ****
supposed to go to de ting's daddy's wake de. but i nv go. one thing is cos i go for DG. another is also i decided not to. Cos..
dad was cranky lah! he woke up. when i was tokking to mum about stuff like IC and stuff. then.. daddy woke up and gave his angry 2 cents worth. Then he carried on rattling. so i decided to change topic. and tok about the wake.
then i was asking mum whether the wake is a buddhist or taoist one? den tokking about is it miao or si. Then daddy was cranky again! he scolded me and mum.. he say you guys dun even know about religion stuff properly.. den anyhow believe in christianity. thanks lo. I was really feeling beri unjust.
i told my sis to pray for dad. cos i couldn't. i could feel my whole brain thinking of how to rebuke him back. but i nv actually say it to him. cos he left home. and i thot it was my chance to cool down. he went down stairs to buy sth.
then he came back and went to lunch with me and mum. me and mum went off first. den he slowly catch up. ERM i was quite unhappy still. mum kept reminding me of wad he said. probrably trying to analyse his words. but i was not in the mood to. so i kept super quiet. and i only told mum that i going to fmss den ask her to go shop around the market first.
then i went to aunt pat and was appointed to do the outreach thing. i duno what to say lah. then.. i was waiting for tracy and evan to end school. den..meanwhile mum and dad finish food already. she called me to say she is going home le. so i said ok. then.. i was contemplating what to do with my lunch.
tracy offered to eat lunch with me. I agreed. so we ate together. she was in the end late for lesson. my fault bah. in some sense bah. sorry.
then.. was so tired. and i went to school. i couldn't believed my ears when ben told me he like junhao. ahhaaa.. i look at my sis and we laughed. cos. i first time hear guy saying he like a guy is the just friend way. dun xiang wai. its ben. but is quite funny. hahahahaa.
ok. tt's all for now. my dg was great. din had dinner so eat bread. chatted with cor. i nv chat online. din want to get addicted. yup yup, slept late. but did QT. yup. glad abt tt.
yup yup.. tata. - i spent 30 mins on this. oh mans!!
// posted by Jearlie @ 11:04 PM 
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